Only if u insists...want me..

Sangat turn off bila lelaki tu : 

❌ Merokok

❌Trying too woo me, tapi bila i called dia tak jawab, pastu tamau return call. Text je memanjang. Stingy ke apa tu?

❌Pemalas & Pengotor

❌Tak bersukan

❌No adventure activity. Apa pon tak bole. At least main kete la bro..

❌Control hidup i

❌24/7 nak kena update kat dia apa kita buat, siapa kau ???

❌Antisocial. Hello kau ni takde kawan lelaki ke asik nak berkepit dengan aku. Soooo rimasss. 

❌Takda kerja lain, asik nak ajak whatsapp all the time. Pastu tak reply nak moody. Zzzz agak agak cket perangai tu plissss. I pun ada kerja lain juga nak settle. 

❌No fashion sense at all. Swear tak bole masuk kepala. Abis sape eh nak teman i shopping nanti??

❌Kaki tipu. Kerja kau tu nak menipoooo je memanjang even dah kantoii masih naj tipu. Tolongla jgn malukan diri sendiri.
❌Song kaki. Bebual lebih. Habuk pon takdakk. Sooo not me bro... Cakap biar serupa bikin cket.  

❌Dependable and not creative. Hello if u want me, be a man instead a shemale. Independent cket buat keputusan. Tak kan semua nak tanya perempuan ??? lols

Okey so far tu je. Yang lain if ada will update later =))

I need some time & space now due to hectic week. Goodnight. 

Me so penat,

Zana xx

26/3/2013 @ 4.27am

Never fail on making your name on top of my list.
Terima kasih daun keladi. Mudah mudahan jumpa lagi.
I know you'll always will. Miss u before, miss u now,
miss u then, miss u forever =))

Remembering you,
Zana xx

For the many times I relied on faith & trust, this time they failed me. Now I look for patience & tolerance, and tht xtra lil bit of effort.

Rough morning, rough week. Possibly, the toughest week of my life. Surely it can only get better from now, right?

Me after werkkkk =))

Hectic day todayyyy since the regional manager came early morninggg to do some spotcheck. Wahhh been actingggg sooo rajin all day longgggg. Penat hell, sejukk and sooo lapar all the time.
Nampak sgt the red flag hampir tiba kann. Jeng jeng jeng. The worst part is i have pimple dalam hidunggg. Denggggg. Sambil drive sambil korekkk. Macam heaven juga main korek korek ni. Hehehe =D

Btw belowwwwww is my pictureeeee. Muka kenyangggg. Weeeee.



Till next time babiessss.

Happy girl,
Zana xx

3.43 am, yessss againnnnn. Bad dreamssss. What lah ! Im sick of this. Hmmmm

Time will tell.

Bila boring, i write. 

Bila lonely, i write. 

Bila feel empty, i write. 

Bila sad, i write. 

Bila i happy, ponn i write. 

Bila tak bole tido, i write. 

Bila rindu, i still write. 

But after all bila i in love, i'll hide. =))

Hmmmp sometimes, somehow i feel like something that i just being miserable for nothing. 

Thats why i hate being at home for too long and do nothing. Swear im freaking bored. 

Penat sangat pon tak boleh tido juga. Rasa macam nak text, but dunno who to text. Rasa macam nak on the phone, but dunno who to call. I bet this month confirm phn bill gonna be so ciput. 100% confirm !!!

Its good to see all my friends around me happy. Im so jelly. Some are getting married soon. Some still in plan to get engaged. Some are just in love. But i am still being "just me". Being loser, being loner, and of cuz being single. Haihhh. 

Btw Zana, dont lose hope. Maybe its not your time yet. Be patience and always pray to Allah. Believe it, that when the right time is come, good thing will happen. Insya Allah. =))

Till next time dear.

Love,

Zana xx

Not today

Gosh ! Im having real bad low blood pressure today.
Almost fainted few times. T_T
What had happend girl ???

Meet anak Pak Leman =))

Lunchiee at Nandos, thank you popepe =D



Otw sending him back to Singapore =))



Sandwich monster is off to the gym. Aha Encik Popeye =))

So Sunday =/

What a day la today. So panas. So sleepy. So hungry. Today as usual, like normal weekdays, tak semangat sangat, and tak malas too, but i found that...

After an hour working, i dah lapar gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa daddy punyaa. Muka ni rasa ketat gila and i perasan sendiri yang i cant even smile to anyone. Even i tried, tapi rasa macam pipi ni tak boleh nak gerak for smile. Rasa mukaaa freaking tight. Gilaaaaaaaaaaaaanyaaaaaaa today. 

Maybe becuz of the weather yang so terik one. Ntahlahhhh. Huhu. But finally, i managed to get home abit early today since there's not so much case n customer. 

Im now naked, the aircond is on, the room is super kaduper darkk, its just like in heavennnn.... Andddd swimming on my bed. lols. Lets sleep baby !!! 

Till next time kesayangan. 

Missing someone,

Zana xx

=))

You should be sorry, you're the one who left.
Hmm listen, im gonna be late for work. Bye !

Bad Dreams =((

Was asleep and awaken by some freaking bad dreams. I miss you bubbs. =((

Safe trips to kashmir & new delhi and please take care of yourself wherever you are =(

Today will never come again. Be a blessing. Be a friend. Encourage someone. Take time to care. Let your words heal, and not wound.

Asik Donek =))

Bila dah selalu sangat being dumb, being hurt, being stupid, drama and everything.... 

Sampai satu tahap nanti, akan ada perasaan malas nak melayan those lelaki lelaki yang ada.. Even dia tak bersalah, but thats how i do feel right now. Perasaan dah tak ada hati dekat lelaki. Rasa malas, bosan and penat. Layan bila perlu, and bila rasa nak. But not terpaksa, saya ikhlas !! 

Entahla, everything seems changed since that day. Hopefully lepas ni i akan always beware and be careful and always protect my own heart first. Ni asik nak jaga hati orang, but hati sendiri tergadai. T_T

Anyway im feeling much better now since i started work. I make myself busy everyday and night. Balik balik trus tdo. So takde masa sgt nak sedih sedih. And yes, i guess im fully recovered atm. Alhamdulillah. Thanks to everyone yang tak putus2 doakan i cepat recover. Ur prayers sgt dihargai. Love kamu kamu semua. 

Happy girl =))

Zana xx

Every rain, hail and thunderstorm.

Look, at the end, before I left. Our problems looked this big, so I went away. Now I realized they only seem that way cause we were so close up against them and they were blocking me at seeing how much I love you. - Tom Scavo. 

Maybe we didnt have is as hard as they did.

But we had our fair share of tough and testing times.

I only wish we could have had the same ending.

What Tom said,
Zana xx

via expectations/realities

Boringnya. Bila penat sangat pon tak boleh tido juga ni. T_T
Hmmmp...kalaulahh kalau =(

I didnt need to be superwoman, I just wanted to be your woman.

"So when people ask me whether being in the White House has changed my husband, I can honestly say that when it comes to his character, and his convictions, and his heart, Barack Obama is still the same man I fell in love with all those years ago… And I didn’t think it was possible, but today, I love my husband even more than I did four years ago… even more than I did 23 years ago, when we first met. I love that he’s never forgotten how he started."  - Michelle Obama-

Bad Dream

I was asleep justnow. 

Suddenly had a bad dream, heard this one guy which i have no idea who is he, calling my name like sooo loud just beside my ear "zana!" and now im awake  edi. Demmit lahh. 😞

And what happen now is my left hand side in pain. T_T aiyakkkk please sleep now zanaaaa. Sleep baby sleep =((

Still recovering,

Zana xx

Somebody help !

Is there anyone out there yang tak annoying who i can talk with awhile right now ?
I promise it wont be long and i'll head off to bed after that =(( Gahhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!

Carnt sleep T_T
Z xx

Keep counting =))

Tuesday is my second day =))

Hello loveliesss, how are you feeling today ?? Me ?? Great. Sangat happy so far. Today not so much work but petang have to do some report. Biasalaa Atm duit stuck, kad kena telan, kereta kena tarik, suami isteri bercerai so nak cancel current account. Macam macam dramaa la senang cerita. Hehe. 

So far tak bosan kerja kat branch. Cuma i have to pretend macam cool, macam penyabar, kene senggih je walaupon kena maki, and keepin myself away from my phone. Bagus juga. Takdela asik tweet bebukan. Hehe. 

What makes me so semangat is, bila balik tengok wahhhhh so full lahhh inbox. With those notifications from my social netwok accounts. Kannn semangat nak baca, betul tak? Hihi. 

Ada lagi satu, some text from orang tu. heheh. But this time around let me keep it as a secret dulu. Yang pentingggg me so happy !!!

Tadi before balik ada meeting with my bm, which is branch manager. Let me introduce him as LKC. Byk nye kpi i dia explained td. Pheww. Btw kpi is some sort of job scope. And there will be some courses for me to attend by next month. Waduh waduh. Takpela yang penting gaji jalan, allowance pon masuk. Hihi. 

Hari hari balik at 7pm. Bosan mmg la bosan. Tapi bila pk ot, jadi happy lahhhh. Hihi. And anyway today saya makan banyakkkkkk sgt. Mommy masak simple je, nasi goreng belacan with ikan goreng and kobes goreng ala mamak style. Tapiii ituu la faveret  for the win saya. Dah lama tak mkn nasi, tetibe tambah 2x tadi. Kebetulan mmg sgt lapar. Cuz td tghari mkn bread + peanut butter 2 slices je. Now tummy so big mcm nak meletop. Haihhh. lols. 

Okey lah, nak rest kan badan and mandi. Catch u soon my loyal readerssss. Me love you up up in the skiesss. 

Happy me =))

Zana xx 

Take it easy

Pleass dont get me wrong, dont get me wrong, dont get me wrong.
I still remember, when the last time Zaman called me and wanted to end up
our so called "relationship", he said, Zana, no worries there's a lots of guy out there
who better enuf for you...balabla..." Yeah you right.
Betul la tuuuuu cakap zaman. Tapi apaaa ponnn you cakappp,
I tetap tak percaya sebabbbb semuaaa lelakiiiii sweet talker and not worth to get
my trust. Dengar boleh, percaya ohhhh tidak !!!!

My heart closed until futher notice. Tq =))

First Day in Ambank

How i wish i have a bf. 

What a day la todei. 

So tiring. 

Super kaduper backpain. 

Been seat up straight since morning and non stop smilling, pretending as if ur an angle. Phewwww that iss super me. lol. 

No one to talk with,

No one to share. 

I remembered when last time on my first day in evergreen, hmmm saya berpunya. At least penat lelah,

Balik kerja adaaaa juga tempat nak share mengadu, mengada, manja, complaint, everything. But for now, di sini lahhh tempatnya. 

Oh my blog, i wish ur a person who can talk with. But its okey. 

Bila macam ni, rasa rindu sangat kat someone tu. haih. Dulu before start kerja, i still remember, dia cakap itu ini, but at least dia tak lupa nak wish me semalam wlwpon it seems like a sombong dude yang nak tak nak je talk to me. But its okey. I hope day

by day, i'll get better. 

So now apa yang boleh buat is sleep early, esok bangun kerja lagi. This gonna be my activitiess sampai bila pon tatauuuuuuu. Huwaaaaaa. Okey nothing much to update sebab penat sgt, kenot write very well. My brain sgt jammed. Sebab macam shocked tengokkk orang ramai sgt tadi kat bank. Btw, just an advices to those who read my blog ni. 

Siapa pun awak, kat mana pon awak, always bersabar. Sebenarnya kerjaaa melayan kerenah pelanggan ni tak semudahhh yang u ols sangkakan. Semuaaa nak kanchiongg aiyo we trying our best to settle up cepat cepat. Kita org ponnn nak balik awalll kannn. So be patience in whatever u do. 

Okey dahh, nak tidoooo. Nity nitesssss kesayangannnn. Senyum senyum alwaysss. Gahhhhh =))

Still recovering,

Zana xx

Jatuh Hati

So far, perasaan macam ni baru datang 3 kali je dalam hidup I. 

Yang first, bakal menjadi daddy kepada bekas kawan baik. 

Yang second, entah hilang ke mana. 

Yang third, hmmmp tak menjadi. 

Yang forth, mungkin takda lagi. 

But who knows, Allah bukakan pintu hati I untuk in love lagi. 

Apapun, kena over yang previous one dulu. 

Time will heal, take time, when the times arrive, yes maybe thats the time, and only time does matter. 

Semuanya berkaitan dengan masa. 

Kusutnya kepala. I cant seems focus on anything lately.

I rather write it all here. At least I knw that some people might read this. 

Being lonely, feeling empty, feel bored, being miserable, being angry, being mad, feel suprised, being crazy, feel like crying, being weird, feel sick. 

Thats me now. 

Get well soon Zana. 

Kuatkan iman. 

Berdoalah pada Allah. 

Bersyukur dengan apa yang ada. 

Insyallah =))

Ceritaku of the day =))

Well this is my story. 

Sebenarnya, selama i miserable ni,

Selama i sakit ni,

Bukan Amy yang i tak over kan,

Bukan Amy yang i rindukan,

Tapi its all about Man. Hmmpp. 

What so special about him???

Well i guess, even he's pretending before...

I adore his style. 

Even he's much younger than me..

I think he's matured enough !

The way he talk, entahla its feel like 

meltingggg....hihi <---miangnya aku ni =P

Even until now, I still can't get him out of my head. 

And I did realised yang dia mungkin sedaya upaya bersungguh sungguh untuk buat I bencikan dia. Hmmm

Btw, if you guys read this, don't judge anything. Becuz this is my story. My page, my blog. Senang cerita ini belog saya, suka baca, sila baca, kalau rasa geli menyampah tak suka, feel free not to pay a visit ya =))

Adios !

Me, still recovering.

Zana xx

I woke up and found that I was missing you

Where is the person who has your heart at this moment?

I wish I knew.

Are you waiting for something?

At this moment, breakfast. 

What were you doing at ten last night?

Driving home with mom

Did you cry today?

Yeah.

Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?

How can I hate mom?

Have you ever thought about converting your religion?

hell no

Last shocking news you heard?

His lies, again. 

Can you sleep in jeans?

Oh I cant even walk around the house in jeans. I think they're only meant for outdoor use.

What cant you wait for?

My bestfriend's wedding =))

When was the last time you told someone you loved them and meant it?

Its been a while.

Are you good at giving advice?

I'm not sure. Ask ppl the receiving end of my 'advices' haha

Are you good at giving directions?

Good enough.

When is the last time you told someone youre okay when youre not?

All the time nowadays.

What is your favourite shake?

Chocolate I guess. I mean who doesnt like CHOCOLATE. *oh lupa. Bobby allergic kan? haha

What movie are you waiting for?

Twilight, eerrr maybe =D

Do you want to live with your gf/bf?

Does not apply. NEXT!

What song do you listen to feel happy?

Recently, The man who cant be moved.

Garfield or mickey mouse?

Mickey Mouse. 

In a week, how many times do you go online?

22-7.

What are you listening to right now?

R-kelly, The world's greatest.

Complete this sentence: THE WORLD NEEDS

BARACK OBAMA!! HAHAHA

What was the last thing you ate?

Otak otak kempas cicah Nuttella. Nyums

Something happened today?

The sun still came up from the East, thank God.

Have you kissed someone on the lips in the past week?

uuu nakal. no.

Where is your sister/brother right now?

Somewhere in JB & KL.

If your ex called right now and said they wanted you back, what would you say?

DING DING DING DING! YOU HAVE REACHED THE MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION ON THE MOMENT OF TRUTH!!!

Wth.. hahaha

Who was the last person you talked to in person?

My mom lah. kan dah bagitau tadi.

Do you have friends?

The best.

Have you ever been out past curfew?

Always. :s

In the past week, have you felt sad?

Yeap, 24/7.

What were you doing at 9 am this morning?

Now its only 7.15am.

Is your room clean?

Always. 

Who was the last person you threw out of your life?

I dont throw. I calmly exit. haha

In the next 4 months, what are you looking forward to the most?

July and August <-- my birthday !!!

Have you ever told someone you love them?

yes. and meant it.

Did you have a good day today?

Barely a day yet.

How many hours did you sleep last night?

6 !!!

In the past week, have you felt stupid?

Everyday cuz being dumb by some Kelings. 

In the past week have you gotten sick?

Does a headache count?

Are you boring?

I would like to think not. haha