What A Day Today !

Feel so bodoh today. Haih sabar jela. How to explain here. My heart beats still beeping so fast.
Marah tu tak but sakit hati sangat. Maybe i should stop trying. The truth is we all know that
Z tu mmg dah xnak i, and whatever it takes, dia tetap akan anggap i kawan not more than just a friend. And i really understand and i knew it ! Kenapa la i mcm perempuan bodoh yang terhegeh2 keep trying to get him back?? U see, now he's playing games with me. Kalau ikut naluri i yang baik and suka think positive ni, i mesti akan fikir yang dia betul2 busy and that is why he make such excuses. Paling pelik sangat bila we used to msg politely and manja, suddenly terpaksa tukar jadi mcm stranger. But lucky him, im still trying. Ishhhh what happend to me ni? Asik kene bodohhh je dengan lelaki. Swear i pissed off habis. Boleh je nak pergi tadi, but he seems tak semangat, i was saja to test him, but too bad, dia serious. Ishhh. Sabar zana sabar. Maybe dia betul betul busy, itu ayat i bak pujuk hati sendiri je, or maybe dia mmg dah takda hati and trying to fool me. Hmmmp tah la. Kalau pk umur i yang lagi 5 tahun nak 30 ni, i malas nak layan dah. Wasting time aje. Sumore we knw yang dia mmg tak serious. Kalau dia betul nak, baik dia make it happend. Tenang la hatiii. Laju je jantung ni gerak. Baru nak hilang migrain, now migrain again. I should keep my mind clear before i start kerja. If not mmg tak boleh focus like dis. Hopefully, kalau Z tu betul betul da taknak i, please put some distance on us, i mean untuk sementara waktu ni. Kalau boleh i taknak dah jumpa u lagi. Give me time and space jab pls. Hmm but if u want me, and insists me to do someting for u, u shud tell me, i mmg tak tau nak baca baca hint ni. Swear ive no idea at all. Tah laaaa kenapa la u buat i macam ni. Mmg since start i was the one to be blame, but now i guess we're cool dah. And u shouldnt treat me like dis. U buat i macam main tarik tali la. Tah la. Sakit kepala i. Sedih la. I tot im gonna make u happy on ur special day ni. Ive been waiting for this time since last wik. U juga asked me to wait for u after u finished race. Tup tup this is it. Lain pula cerita. I hope sgt, if u mmg dah takmau i, or niat u just a friendddd je, u better back off awhile. I sakit sangat. Swear i dont lie mmg sakit sgt. Huhu.

Till then,
Zana xx