Sad truly sad =(

I am so sad. Sedih sangat. I thought he could be my last one. Why is this happend to me.
Kenapa mesti aku je yang jadi mangsa. Hmmmp baru nak happy happy. Banyak sangat
dugaan tahun 2013 ni. Even since start lagi. I wanted to be 100% honest and sincere with you,
but again i failed. I met this one guy, let me called him as Z. Actually kita da kenal lama, cuma
tak rapat. Entah tiba tiba, kita jadi close sebab aku ada upload gambar kedai sup tulang merah
kat instagram. Since that, kita keep in touch hari hari. Even tak lama, but i feel sgt comfy and sgt
happy gan Z ni. Memang salah aku, sbb aku ada hide somthing about my past kat dia. But honestly, it wasnt my intention to do that. I really want to tell the truth cuma masa tak mengizinkan. Sedih sangat  cuz belom puas lagi kenal Z ni, but it seems the friendship will end up just like that. I lose hope. Kalau tau nak jadi macam ni lagi, aku taknak layan mana mana guy dah. Jadi pengkid lagi bagus, nak bawa motor, jadi ducatti mosterchics. Hmmm. Malas nak bercinta dah. Tak kawin pon takpe. Maybe itu lah kehendakNya. Harap harap Z boleh accept my appology and we still can be friend. I still have feeling for you even ur hating me edi. I wont blame you and i'll never do. My bad, my fault. I yang rushed and this is why this things happend. I lose hope and heart broken. Please focus on your dream Z. U still have long way to go, and even for me im still learning to the real world. Im teribbly sorry. I didnt meant to hurt u. I never have bad intention to you. But whatever it takes in future between us, even its hurt, i redha. Im ready to accept everything that might happens later. And i meant it ! If you're reading this one day, take a good care of yourself and always remember, i will never forget you and your kindness. I hope too, that we still can be friend. Even a good friend. I really like you the way you are and its such an amazing experienced of knowing you even in short time.